Mother, Pray… 

​If you stand in my way

I swear by God that I will end you

I will deliver you, with a smile, to Hell’s bloody belly

And I will stay just to watch you burn

I give you my word

I will live and die with that promise on my lips 

Till one of us has taken her leave

You’ve taken too much

You’ve caused your trouble

And you have visited your pain upon my head

Beneath these black skies, this very night,

I vow to keep my word to you

Say your prayers, Mother 

A new day found her, once again

And woke her from her bloody dreams

For a moment, she was grateful
She felt a bit of peace
The phone rang and she spoke
Happily, to a friend
She hung up, and he never knew
That she was praying for the end
Loved ones are a stumbling block
If you’ve not yet lost your mind
You want to be there for them, always
But they are stealing precious time
Because you worry for their hearts
You cannot seek your dream
To leave this filthy prison
Made of flesh and blood and pain
Forever solitary in this life God gave to you
How do you give it back to Him
How do say it’s not enough
How do you tell Him that you never wanted
What He gave to you with love
They say that God doesn’t make mistakes
But that’s difficult to believe
Because, a half century and one year ago, He gave life to me

Abaddon Arises

Manic me runs through flowery pastures

Rain soaked and laughing

I bounce about, beautiful words sing themselves inside my head

I am glowing

Radiant from the life that flies through my soul at the speed of light

The world is a better place

I cannot stop smiling…

~

Every up has its down

And I descend quickly

Darkness falls upon my heart as Abaddon arises within

The Great Destroyer has come to eat my soul

And, that, He does

Devouring every good thing; burying my joy in the unmarked grave that is my life at that moment 

Every breath draws me closer to that from which there is no escape

And I die to the blue skies

Embracing the thunder that pounds away at my heart 

Believing every terrible thing that screams its way into my head 

Flowery pastures be damned, for Hell has won this day 

Sealed With A Kiss

I wanna play with you

Laugh like kids and runaway with you

You be Sid and I’ll be Nancy

Shining our stars down on the downtrodden masses

They’ll envy our love as we scale Life’s skyscrapers

We’ll fly, minds melting one into the other

Blazing out into that other place

Eternally entwined 

Sealed with a kiss

The Game

You wouldn’t like me if you knew me

Bet that

I’m so far from who you think I am

That a million mile journey would not reveal, to you, my face

You watch me in silence

I smile

As I see your curiosity taking over

I’m looking back at you

But you don’t notice

Because you are captivated 

And so I advance

Smile, in tact

Throughout sunny days and stormy nights

I dance in your head

Your pursuit thrills me

You are in my head, as well

And I am in love with this game

Knowing that, finally, I will prevail

And, at the last, you will have never seen my true face

Bet that

It’s All Good 


I’ve grown weary of saying I’m fine

I’m OK

Yeah, whatever

Smile pretty 

Act sincere

Whatever you do

Swallow the truth like a good girl

Write crap like this

Trite

Insignificant 

What the Hell

It passes the time

Relentless 

Mind fucking 

Time 

Retail Therapy

You break my heart and I shop for towels

Towels, of all things

I am sad, heartbroken, and hurt 

So, I search the internet until I can barely see straight

Until I find the perfect towels 

Then, I spend hundreds of dollars on fucking towels;

Woven towels

Plush towels

Patterns and plain

Towels made of the yarn spun from the hair of the Tibetan Yak 

That’s how I’m coping

With your rejection

Your judgement 

With your intolerable sense of superiority 

I press Confirm Order

I feel relief and peace rush over me like a river

In a moment’s time, I’m over you

I laugh at myself

More so, I laugh at you

Realizing that you truly rate somewhere between bathroom towels and a blow up foot bath 

Then I thank God you weren’t the Ferrari I’d imagined you to be 

Ol Bertha 

I have an old wooden rocking chair that’s held together by the grace of God

I call her Ol Bertha

The glue that once held her creaking joints in place has long since dried up, and has given her a crackly old voice

She’s rocked every baby in my family to sleep for two generations, and held me in familiar arms when she was the only comfort I could find

She has been a silent witness to the good and bad for over thirty years

Now that I’m alone

She’s an old friend…a time machine

We share memories over sweet iced tea

And secrets over whiskey 

There is something so comforting and familiar about my rocking chair

So much love and happiness caught up in the grain of her wood

That I’d sooner die than live without her

Life is funny that way, I guess

Of all of the people who’ve come and gone

I prefer Ol Bertha to them all