I only ever wanted to be free
Of the you
Of the me
Of the goddamn WE
Though your body long since failed you
You live on
In every breath I take
Until I’m choking…gasping…drowning
In memories of you
You were my first everything
I was your grateful nothing
Alone, in the dust of our life together
I am frozen
Buried beneath the weight of the lies you left behind
Trying to understand three decades of deceit and anger and pain
Still telling myself the lies you told me
An obedient bitch till the end
If I could, I’d bring you back
Then I would gut you like a deer
And play in the puddle of filth that was once you
Dead from the inside, out
Just. Like. Me.