Mind races, heart aches
Deep into the night when all seems quiet
A rage builds within my exhausted mind
Life isn’t fair…it was never meant be
And, so, I’ve not once asked that of Life, or God, or of any person I’ve known
But I’m tired now
I feel broken and weak and lost
My heart no longer cries out for love
Except to conjure imaginations of you that come alive in the night
What I seek is peace while, still, I live
…for a single day not tainted by your memory
I’m thinking of you now
As rain taps at my window and thunder rolls through an unforgiving sky
In this beautiful place you left behind, I am quiet and I am listening
Waiting for the answers to questions long forgotten
Tears flowing, I’m breathless
As I consider the reality of who you were
Who I was
And why I can’t let you go